Check up

I had my check up with my doctor today after 4 months. I know I've mentioned before how much I love her. But she honestly is the best. I LOVE going to see her! Its a great feeling to know that a doctor can be that proud of you. This woman is seriously the most genuine doctor ever. She's not just there to tell you what to do and tell you what your doing wrong. She's truly invested and truly cares. I left the doctor today feeling on top :-) 

She always gives me little quotes that stick and I live by them... The biggest one being "Nothing tastes as good, as being thin feels." (Hence the page heading.) Well today I was talking to her about how hard it is to be around people and eating and what not. Everyone has different opinions on whats healthy what I should  be eating, etc. I always tell them and myself "I cant eat that." Instead she said to say (or think) "I can eat it, I just choose not to." Hopefully this approach will give me a more empowering mind set-one that says-I'm in control. I also brought up a few other things I wasn't liking about the weight loss (excess skin is a big one). She then redirected my attention and made me list what I enjoy about losing weight:

• Increased energy
• My body feels better
• I do like my body despite the extra skin (I'd rather have it this way than be fat)
• I can "play" with the kids
• My clothing choices are expanding
• I can wear "normal" people bangles (bracelets)
• My knees and ankle (broke my ankle) don't hurt
• I feel GOOD having control over my life
• I enjoy educating myself on health and the science behind it
• The compliments from people never hurt :-)
• I can run
• Losing weight has made me motivated to try new things in life (like maybe school?)
• I'm more confident
• I'm healthy
• I enjoy working out
• My personality is different. I used to try to keep quiet and hide behind the fat me (we all know this is totally not the case anymore!)
• I feel the need to help other overweight people
• I have a neck
• I can feel my bones!

Its very easy to focus on negative things (the excess skin, the expense of healthy food, the expense of new clothes)-however those things can all be dealt with. I love the new me and wouldn't change it for the world. Although the excess skin is a huge deal to me... I'm a very image cautious person. Even when I was bigger I always dressed nice and made sure my appearance was on point. So now that I'm "thinner" the skin bothers me. However I have to realize 1.) I cant get skin removed till I lose all that I want, and keep it off for a while to be sure... 2.) It IS fixable. 

My doctor also asked that I make a poster (before and after) for her to show in the office (Nina! I may need your help with this!), which now has me digging through all my "fat" pics, so here's a few for you all! 

And here's a current pic:

None of my weight loss would be possible without the amazing support from my family, friends, and my wonderful doctor who truly is invested. I couldn't be more blessed and more appreciative. I just hope you all know and that I really do Thank you enough.

Oh-and if my doctor didn't fill my head enough for the day-I came home and was wearing only my leggings and black cami (mind you-all very body hugging clothes!) and my room mate says "Damn, I wish I had your self control and dedication. Your really getting skinny." 

 

Just when I'm feeling like its hard-I always get the motivation I need to keep on. God has changed my life in every aspect during the past 2 years and took some people out and brought some people in. And no doubt he put the people who I needed.

 

• Tam (thanks for the doctor recommendation!)
• My church family
• My adopted family
• New friends
• My gym family (Yes, Paul-that means you!)
• Family

 

 My doctor also being one of them. Couldn't love her more or be more appreciative of her :-) 

Thank you Dr. J! (its not just 1% you-its a whole lot more!)

Current weight: 236 (102 pounds lost)